Awakening Fist - Single Release
God spoke to me. I was three, in the front yard at the farm, the clouds twisted like a wringing towel and I heard my name thundered both from without and deep within.
We are spiritual beings having a physical experience.
The church offered a foundation of concepts and although Catholic doctrine demands control over your connection to God, I rejected that idea from day one. At least following the moment that God spoke to me. I was three, in the front yard at the farm, the clouds twisted like a wringing towel and I heard my name thundered from both without and deep within. It terrified me. I recall screaming and banging on the front door as if to hide from danger. I questioned the experience my entire life but it never left me. Granted at such a young age, it became the sole reference point and the first stone to the foundation of my faith.
The rigidity of structured worship forced my ability to receive. The attainment of holy sacrements offered a pathway to growth. The guidance of Father David Banga provided a living example of love incarnate. As an adolescent he would join me in the grain truck as I stumbled my way through what I couldn’t accept. Given his authority and my trust in it, another world opened as I listened. His insight into the mystery offered the Bible as a compass and that it spoke in metaphor. Nothing could properly express the Truth through mere words. Our interpretation with the power of discernment was the lighthouse to wisdom. When Father Banga dropped dead of a heart attack while in India I spiralled into yet another challenge of faith.
Through my twenties, prayer became an act of appeal. At times a bargaining. Some requests were answered and some were not. I still had yet to understand the complexity of the unknown and perceived His power as one of rule and reward. Guilt carried weight, I would cheat on a lover, and only then, find myself back in a pew on Sunday morning. A constant dance of deal making and deal breaking. Yet, through the process, I continued to feel a supreme force of forgiveness. The Shepherd and lamb. I would try-try again.
For three decades I hit the snooze on an awakening. A great architecture would present itself and I would question its actuality. Never to match that first booming call at the age of three, I would carry on without a second thought of what was unveiling itself until an encounter with evil in full manifestation had me begging for protection and assistance. Recalling the invocation to ‘plea the blood of Christ’, I did so with desperation.
Spiritually speaking, shit went down.
A whirlwind of cause and effect. What was unlocked? Open windows with gale force winds of enchantment, a magical essence overwhelming reality. The world of synchronicity with senses beyond the physical set forth. Still unable to describe the violent shake-up of perception and awoke physicalities, one ability cemented itself. To see beyond sight. A esoteric capacity to visualize. It comes in subtle whispers of the heart to clear visions of the mind. When implored its strength is tested, akin to approaching an object and a desire to lift. To lift is to manifest. The greater the feat, the lengthier the experiment.
I haven’t audibly heard God since the day the clouds turned.
But I’ve seen him a million times.
Howdy Readers,
Another shout out to all those who have upgraded their subscriptions throughout the course of this campaign.
I’ve been messing around with the recording sessions to these tracks and pulling out some moments from the songs, muting instruments, remixing vocals and using the snippets for promo. If you’ve been paying attention to the promotions for this Friday’s Vinyl Release show at Darke Hall you’ve heard a few of these…the most recent is reference to the attached track, Awakening Fist.
I love how this tune turned out. It’s definitely going to get the music video treatment. Thinking of taking thousands of photos instead of video, printing them, cutting them out and doing a paper stop animation concept.
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BB
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